James's Blog

So just got back from school, was a pretty long day for me today. Went for autocad test today, and I think it was alright haha just wait till the results come out then i’ll see.

Went to the gym with Gerald and Terence until 1pm then idled at FC 5 for like freaking 2 hours. I took a nap on the table and when it was 3 we all went to the workshop for this stupid car racing shit which was part of our project, but we left like just 30 minutes through cos it was freaking a waste of time.

Anyway I just got home and am resting now(: Gonna start studying later again though :\

Everything happens for a reason. It hurts a lil still, but time will heal

Sighh

Its 1.30am, I went to take a walk and at the same time met up with Ethan to eat. I’m better now, happier now:)

Anyways I’ve cleared most of the stuff going on in my head and finally starting to feel at ease.

Okay all these emotions aside, I really can’t get all the stuff I need to study into my head! Its so hard and I need more time to study but the problem is I don’t have enough timeeeee. :\

Tmr I still have autocad exam and I’m not sleeping yet, jambionn man. Have to wake up at 7am somemore.

I’m sorry for everything. I won’t bother you so much anymore or be so clingy.

Good luck in life my friend.

I got it bad this time, real bad. I’m not following my heart but following what my mind tells me to think.

How long will this drag on..? I feel its so one-sided:(

Why am I always on the losing end..:(

Stressed from exams, my friend is pissed with me, how could anything be worst than this..

I’m Sorry.

I feel like I’m not as close to you as before.

Who is the man I see
Where I’m supposed to be?
I lost my heart, I buried it too deep
Under the iron sea

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall

Lines ever more unclear
I’m not sure I’m even here
The more I look the more I think that I’m
Starting to disappear

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song
I’m fading out, everything I know is wrong
So put me where I belong

I don’t where I am
And I don’t really care
I look myself in eye
There’s noone there
I fall upon the earth
I call upon the air
But all I get is the same old vacant stare

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song
I’m fading out, everything I know is wrong
So put me where I belong

So little time left and yet theres still sooo much to study.

After finals I’m taking a LONGGGGG break haha

Anyway I’m in school now its 12.30pm, I’m doing some project I have to finish with terence NG and GY.

Life sucks for now cos theres exams but when its over and done with, it’ll be heaven.

Alright gotta bounce, so much to finish up!

I still couldn’t get over the fact you left me just like that last year. yeah, 14months it has been. I still think about it once in awhile and it hurts.

I don’t know why I’m writing about this but its just that I feel better writing everything out here, motive is not for everybody to see but just for me to feel a lil better.

Remember the note you left in that diary, Study hard, all the way, ACJC? Well you made it but I didn’t :\ At least you’re happy there

It kinda hurts when I think about it sometimes but well thats life, we’re humans with emotions.

Hope to catch up soon with you my friend

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you’re far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I’d still miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we’re together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I’d still miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
I don’t wanna miss one smile
I don’t wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don’t wanna close my eyes
Don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
‘Cause I’d still miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I’d still miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
Don’t wanna close my eyes
Don’t wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don’t wanna miss a thing
I don’t wanna miss a thing